oh how i love a cliche


Today is a day of ups and downs, what some people would refer to as 'one of those days,' with heavy emphasis on those. I have experienced the close proximity with others that I crave and have now been left idle, to my own consciousness which is never a safe place. I am fiercely independent in nature, which comes from being an only child, I have lived my life in my own head but am terrified by being left alone after periods of intensity. I demand close contact with those around me and surround myself with those that I love as much as is humanly possible. I am now left in a lull of loneliness whilst they while away hours without me. It is one of 'those' days.

Soundtrack: Vance Joy


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