Looking after myself
Today, I am feeling terrible. It is on days like today that I wish I had the gift of foresight, to envision that I would do nothing of worth today, so that I could get as much done before to make up for it.
Tonight is my FINAL LECTURE. Ever.
It is weird that this is all coming to an end now. I am left to navigate the choppy seas of Dissertation research on my own soon. No more structure or regulations to adhere to. We are cast out of the University system for a little while. But this year I don't feel anywhere near as sad as I did previously. This time last year I was freaking out that I had no idea what to do or where to go. Now I feel like I have more determination and focus. I feel like there is a new chapter waiting for me now and all I have to do is grasp it.
Studying for a Masters degree was a good decision for me. Others on my course are certainly getting higher marks and I am not excelling at the degree per se, but I feel that I am evolving as a person because of it. I have had a year to figure things out. I did this as a teenager as well. During college I changed my mind about life, freaked out, and needed a gap year to calm down and think about my life choices.
Sure, I'm still making questionable life choices now, but I am getting somewhere now.
I am considering my options for the end of term and feel that this summer could actually be used to be proactive about my future. I am a graduate now. Wow.
Anyway,
Final LECTURE.
ahhh
Today's Soundtrack: Twenty One Pilots
Tonight is my FINAL LECTURE. Ever.
It is weird that this is all coming to an end now. I am left to navigate the choppy seas of Dissertation research on my own soon. No more structure or regulations to adhere to. We are cast out of the University system for a little while. But this year I don't feel anywhere near as sad as I did previously. This time last year I was freaking out that I had no idea what to do or where to go. Now I feel like I have more determination and focus. I feel like there is a new chapter waiting for me now and all I have to do is grasp it.
Studying for a Masters degree was a good decision for me. Others on my course are certainly getting higher marks and I am not excelling at the degree per se, but I feel that I am evolving as a person because of it. I have had a year to figure things out. I did this as a teenager as well. During college I changed my mind about life, freaked out, and needed a gap year to calm down and think about my life choices.
Sure, I'm still making questionable life choices now, but I am getting somewhere now.
I am considering my options for the end of term and feel that this summer could actually be used to be proactive about my future. I am a graduate now. Wow.
Anyway,
Final LECTURE.
ahhh
Today's Soundtrack: Twenty One Pilots
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