Why I'm addicted to timehop

Guys I have a terrible habit.
Well, one of many I guess but this is the one for today.
I am a timehop fiend. I check my timehop everyday. I've had 98 timehops in a row now, a new record for me. I think I'm addicted and I'm not sure this is a good thing or not. (For those of you who don't have it, timehop is an app which displays what happened on this day over the last year's using your social media accounts and phone memory)

So hear me out, I check timehop daily because I am naturally incredibly nostalgic. I love looking back at old pictures, to see how things are the same or incredibly different, old houses and friends and places. I love it.

But one of my issues is with rumination. I frequently go over situations that have happened before in my head, replaying conversations and actions that I could, or indeed should, have done differently given the chance. But that's really the key, I don't have the chance to redo these things so rehashing them endlessly in my brain is pretty useless. It leads to anxiety and worry and circular thought patterns that I cannot get out of. And this always leads to self doubt.

So some days timehop is glorious, and some days I close it, not wanting to read old texts that discuss a feud I'd rather forget or a person who has long since left my side. These conversations make me long for a time that I cannot relive and that is what I struggle with, I would love to go back to those days and change something. But I must believe that the course I am on now is for a reason pals.

Friendships come and go and that isn't always through anyone's fault. People grow apart, things change. It hurts. It's happened a lot, and it still hurts. But it is what it is.

So pals, if you're reading this, I thank you. I consider you by my side, and I apologise if I have cancelled plans recently or not replied to texts, I'm working on that. Thank you for being here.

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As ever, I'm working on me.
I have plenty of things happening, which I'll detail soon.
Enjoy the bank holiday and look after you.
That's all,
R